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Women With A Unique Soul
Interviewed by Jules, written in Ruthi's own words...




Jules, thanks much for the honor
o' bein' interviewed for the WWAUS newsletter!
I could surely write a book, but I'll try not to do so!




I'll begin with a prayer,
to my God,
and sincerely hope it doesn't offend...


O' powerful God,
I thank thee...

....for sendin' me the gift o' friendship o'er the miles o' cyberspace,
for without this gift I would not be here today.

....for the gift o' family, for without this gift, my girls,
Tidbit & Scratch & NewBe, wouldn't be with me today.

....for granting me my girls, for without this gift
from life I would surely have strayed.

....for the gift o' thy companionship, for without this gift
I would have had to journey alone.

In Jesus' name I pray,
Amen.




One evening, in the spring o' 2003,
I left my home in Edgewood, New Mexico...
Visit me there.

....in the midst o' domestic violence...
...escorted from my home by sherriff's deputies.

Probably what best describes my frame o' mind
at that moment was my response to the deputy's query
as to why I wanted to go to the nearest Greyhound bus station...

"If I stay in this state for the night,
to think about it as you suggest, one of us will die tonite.
Either he'd find me, or I'd call him begging for my "life" back.
Either way, before morning, either he'd kill me or I'd kill him."
I had about $88.00 in my pocket,
my tips for the day from my waitress job.
I asked the gal at the station for a 1 way ticket as far
as that would get me & as fast...
the stop would be Ft. Worth, TX, around noon the next day.

The gal at the station let me use her cellphone to call for support...
I made 2 calls, one to my Uncle Billy in Ohio,
left a message on his recorder...
my Aunt Helen called back & suggested
I not leave there without my dogs...
I was in tears over leaving them, but knew I had no choice.

Next I called our Sissy Tams...
who got into cyberland & cyberspace basically took over my life!

When I arrived in Ft. Worth,
paged to the phone by Tams, then Dianna, then Peaches...
Peaches paid for me to come to her in Oklahoma City!
We laid eyes on each other for the 1st time
in the bus station!
She hugged me, fed me, loved me like
I hadn't been loved in a long time!

I stayed with Peaches & Gene for a month or so.
While there...many cards, letters,
packages from cyberspace arrived...
gifts that kept my soul alive for a long, long time
when all I wanted to do was die.

Eventually, I truly needed family & went to stay
here in Ohio with my Uncle & Aunt...
It took me 3 months workin' day & nite to save $$$
to send my aunt & uncle to NM to kidnap my dogs...
Uncle Billy had offered earlier, but I was stubborn,
I had it in my head I had to pay for it or
I shouldn't get them back...we got my girls!
They came home to me on
Mothers Day 2003 - the best gift of all!

Off to the vet the next day,
as the girls had been turned loose in the
woods we lived in to survive for themselves!
Both were malnourished,
Tidbit was pregnant and Scratch was lame.
NewBe was born June 2nd,
with my assistance - Tidbit had a rough time - and with
Sissy Tams on the phone supportin' both Mommas, LOL,
and relaying the births to cyber pals.

Now the "Sunshine Girls" as we've come to be called
are all here in Columbus, OH, safe & secure...
Meet the Sunshine Girls!

....little did I know that my aunt & uncle were havin'
troubles o' their own & I'd be thrown in the middle of it all!
I spent a year at their home, takin' care of it actually,
as my aunt ran away to friends in the desert
and my uncle was busy with his mistress!
Sometimes I think their problems were a godsend in some ways...
left little energy or time for me to dwell on my own problems.

....little did I know that shortly after aunt Helen
returned that I'd get a call from my brother Ronnie...
he was diagnosed terminal with lung cancer & given
6 months to a year to live!
So I became the big sister again & did all I could for him from afar,
he lived in Florida.
Fortunately, I got to see him before he died.

....little did I know that bein' back in Ohio would mean
bein' reunited with my lost son & to this day we struggle with his
problems of heroin addiction and all that comes with that!
He's been in & out o' jail, drug rehabs, even lived with me
for a couple months...until he robbed me of all my $$$ the day before
I was to visit my dying brother...
Poem & Prayers for William

I put my son out of my house on a cold winter nite,
with nothing but his dirty needles!
All I can compare that night to is about the same feeling this
mother's heart got when she left that mountain in NM
leaving her "girls" behind!

I've come a long way baby!

I'm renting a nice house for me & my girls,
I work hard at 2 jobs to keep that roof over our head.
I got myself a computer, finally,
and am back with my cyber family where I belong!

I've got a long way to go baby!

I take new steps toward happiness each & ev'ry day.
I know I don't travel alone...God
has made sure that I have Him, my family, my girls and all of you
to assist me in this journey!

The Lord carries me,
my girls keep me grounded,
and I carry all of you with your love & prayers & encouragement..

Sissies, I got the world by the ass...ets!!!

I am SO proud to be A Woman With A Unique Soul...
my WWAUS dedication pages

A WWAUS Award!
For bein' "one tough fightin' sissy"!
"For overcoming odds that would have most
of us runnin' for the hills!" as Dianna says!
For "bravery above and beyond" so says Mish!

Now, I feel that it's awesome that the WWAUS Sissies
felt I deserved this...tho I feel I've done nuttin' special.
I definitely didn't feel very courageous...
...but to survive this journey, I gotta tell ya...
I am one heck of a fightin' *ITCH!

I thank you Sissies, with ev'ry beat o' my heart!

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